I decided to make a kupipage of some of my songs and poems. The songs and poems I have already posted in my diary will
be here for your convience. I will also write new ones here. i;'m doing this because it's a whole lot easier than
starting a new diary each time.Enjoy!
Not Missing You:

I almost forget what it's like
loving you
I almost forget all the things 
we used to do

Well I have a life
but maybe you don't
you might want me back
but baby I won't

come back to you 
back to you

Cuz I'm fine
it took some time
my lifes back on track
you look sad 
thats to bad
cuz lifes to good to be true 
not missing you

i hope you begin to see
more than you ever saw of me
i hope you begin to feel
worse than you ever thought was real

Well,I've got a date
but maybe you don't
you might feel jealous
but baby I won't

even pretend to care
pretend to care

Cuz i'm fine 
took some time
my lifes back on track
you look sad
thats too bad
cuz lifes to good to be true
not missing you


consider yourself lucky my dads not here
you got the power of texting to fear

Cuz i'm fine 
took some time
my lifes back on track
you look sad
thats to bad
cuz lifes too good to be true 
not missing you

Alone

i take a deep breath
and get ready for the pain
i know he's going to leave me
nothing will ever be the same
but the pain doesn't come
suddenly i'm the only one
that matters right now
i see it in his eyes
he looks like he's gonna cry
i know in that moment 
i have to do it
i don't love him anymore
that i know for sure
i don't wanna break his heart
i should have never let it go that far
reilizing,that i have to end it
is the hardest thing i've ever known
but i have to do it soon,or i'll never get it done
so i tell him
he just looks at me
and leaves
i'm alone
and on my own

Escape

im trapped inside
my own mind
can't break free
someones stopping me

i try to chase my dreams
but they say i can't
they say it's not worth a shot
that i don't stand a chance

i've heard the same thing 
my entire life
so i  can't really tell
if they're wrong or right

Should I escape?
Should I break free?
So many people try to control me
i don't know any different
its always been this way
so why am I wanting to change?

i've wondered what other peoples
lives are like
where they follow their dreams
and no one asks why

im homeschooled
not cool
braniac 
smart alec
hot head
full of dread
cuz no one can understand

Why can't I escape?
Why can't I break free?
So many people want to control
i don't know any different
its always been this way
And now I'm wanting to change

I can think for myself
i know where i want to go
but when i try
people just say no

They're not going to stop me
no way they are
And I'm gonna show them
that i can go far

So I gotta escape

I'm gonna escape
I'm gonna break free
Nobody is going to control me
It is going to be different
it's never been this way
but I'm totally ready for a change

Homeless Girl

A happily ever after
will never come for me
all the time i hear laughter
and i can never see
the worlds so dark
i can't find my way
i'm all alone
it's like that every day
no one even sees
they don't even care about me
they're too wrapped up in their own little world
to them i'm just another homeless girl
i don't know why i'm here
each and every day
i'm left by myself
to waste away
i sit on the curb
as people walk by
but whatever i do, i never cry
New York City is such a busy place
from my point of view it's just a big race
to see who is better, who can make the most money
theres so many of them, it's not even funny
theres no time for me
i'm just in theier way
and i've been waiting so long
for some to say
"Come home with me,
I'll take you in,
I'll be your mother, your sister, your friend"
But I know in my heart
that'll never come true
this is my world
you've seen what it's like
to be a homeless girl


What If?
There are many questions
that tear at your heart
And I'll bet you money
I know how half of them start

Lifes full of changes
you've got to take them as they come
And at the end of the day
You just can't help but say

What if I did this
What if I did that
What would I be doing
Where would I be at
right now

times so complicated
every little detail counts
it's like an equation
if you take 1 number out
everything will change

life is a twisted road
we can't see past right now
we just have to live it
not knowing how it'll turn out

when we make a wrong turn
we always ask ourselves
what if i did something different
how would it turn out

that only makes us feel worse
no point wollowing in the past
because we can't change it
so i'm telling you right now

don't say what if
how will that help?
whats done is done
focus on right now
don't look over your shoulder
just keep walking forward
don't say what if, it won't change a thing