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hurting myself, self abuse,   "CUTTING"   myself
started hurting myself when i was 9, and now i can not stop
just want sombody talk to 
or somebody else who   "HURTS"   them self 
to chat to
my name is suzi
i play the game of   "LIFE"  with the cards i've been delt
standing in a puddle of blood

it hurts but i like it
the   "PAIN"   is inside 
i'am crying but nobody see's
they   "USE"   me for there enjoyment 
but i don't mind do they love me or just use me
i shout out loud but nobody here's me
it's all inside my head confused, telling me to do it
it never goes away 
but it sets me free when i do it

living life in a gold fish bowl

i'm going to  "CRY"   me a River over you
play out at the park when i get my chores done
sum them guys had dogs thats why i talked to them at the park

one them ripped my tights and stole my watch 

like to drink cider the most but will have beer and lager
like to get drunk helps to forget for a short time
they took my phone with the pics they made on it and say they show
them if i dont do more with them 


don't no why but cut myself last night first time in ages
thinking of running away from home
my favourite colour as got to be   "RED"

like to get email as well
suzi_wood@mail.com can send me a message please


Q&A Section   
‹{♥Je t'aime ♥}› 18 Aug 13  
How many times can you fall in love before you die?!?!
river_of_blood 18 Aug 13  
just one time i hope cos i don't want to get my heart broken more than once
Avalon 24 Dec 09  
Blood does look black in the moonlight. Thats true.
I'm the same way. Everytime somebody want something I give it to them and it
does sometimes make me feel better. My parents don't even know me either and its
a relief when they are out of the house or  sleeping. Sometimes I just feel
trapped. *shrug*
river_of_blood 26 Dec 09  
it's the only way, let them take it, let them have it, feel's better till the
next time they want it, thats why the weekends are the best , when they and
there friends want me
Avalon 24 Dec 09  
Nobody can tell you to stop and you don't have to since it's your life to live.
People feel pain and they need to let it out. Cutting is a way they do that.
Just talk a little to some person you trust. That doesn't mean you have to stop
cutting, it just mean you have some emotions you can let out differently.
 :Red would have to be my favorite color also. Though anything dark works as
river_of_blood 24 Dec 09  
parents don't understand me , but stepbrothers and there friends seem kool  but
only when they want something , but i can't stop myself from letting them take
it, for some reason it makes me feel better when they do 
blood looks black in the moonlight
‹xxIch bin totxx› 15 Feb 09  
Everything always takes over... If you haven't noticed nothing will go right...
Everyone is always better, everything is always greater... Its gonna over power
you... But you will just have to take a chance every now and then.
river_of_blood 16 Feb 09  
it feels as if i'am living my life in a gold fish bowl just going round and
‹xxIch bin totxx› 15 Feb 09  
But even though you enjoy it doesn't mean that its good.
People die everyday from that.
Sometimes you just have to find a better way.
Something else to get things off your mind.
Running helps for me all the time.
Or writing in a journal. I do that too.
But sometimes what you may think the best way is turns out to hurt you even
river_of_blood 15 Feb 09  
i write stuff down all the time in a book and i listen to loads of music that
but there are times it just takes over
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