When I look at your picture, its like a weight, pulling me under, farther and farther, till there is no air. Drowning
me in all of my memories, strangling me in a web of thoughts. You make me re-count all of the mistakes I made, all the
things I did wrong. You make me feel like it was my fault, I shouldnt of said what I said, done what I did, Didnt say
what I should of. Like I made one to many mistakes. Like I broke you. Made you feel un-important, not loved, not
useful,not you. Everyday, when I look in the mirror, I dont see myself. I see a horrible, horrible person. A person
that couldnt keep her own brother alive. A tear of life-less hate runs down my cheek, trying to escape the body its
from. Like everyone else, it too tries to escape my evil circle. My hatred and Sorrow. My Self-filled mind and
heart-less guilt. But now, I have no time to make it up, no time to show my love. That time is gone and passed. It
moved on, not waiting. Time was up, you are gone. I am left with all I have. A fake smile, a make-belive positive
attidude. This seems to be the punishment I have brought upon myself. A test. A test I failed. The only test that needs
to be passed, that means so much in life. What is left for me to do? Me, failing the one important life test. Even more
than any math or reading test could ever be. I failed the test of a sisters duty's and love. Her duty to keep you
smiling, keep you safe, out of trouble. I failed you, therefore I failed myself and everyone around me.