At the end of every year, I seem to cry my heart out with my friends hugging me. I seem to think over every memory,
every mistake, every person I met. At the end of the year, I seem to ask my self, what have I learned about myself,
this world and my life? 
This year, I may not cry my heart out in sadness of another year gone; I may cry myself because I am finally sure how I
react to the soft spots in my life. Because I am finally sure what religion I am. Because I finally sure who I am.
Because I have finally accepted all of my flaws and weaknesses. Because I’m learning so much about myself. 
I ask these questions now. When I have stopped my crying for the moment and have finally taken a good look at what has
happened to me and what I’ve done about it.

So, what have I learned about myself, you may ask?

-I have learned that I am Kendan and I am proud of my religion. 
-I have learned that although I think I’m straight, that maybe I’m not. Maybe I’m a little different. Maybe I will go
to Hell because of that. Maybe, I’ll be the girl standing in front of the camera, protesting with my beliefs. Maybe, I
can make people see that this country has no right to say I can’t do what I need to in life, just because they don’t
like "gays" and "fags"
-I have learned that I can rejoice when I do something stupid because I had fun and lived a little.
-I have learned that when you listen to your heart, things are better. 

So, what have I learned about this world, you may ask me one day?

-I have learned that this world don’t care if I'm not ready for another day to come. 
- It doesn't care what one tiny 6th grader thinks. It doesn't care what I have to say. But I say it anyways. I piss
people off, and I don’t care
 -This world is all a game. I have options that aren’t fair, that don’t let me what I need to do.
And the final question I ask myself is what have I learned about my life?
- I have learned that my life is crappy in ways few people know.  
- I have learned that I hit huge road blockers all my life.  People crowd around you to help. But in there attempted
help, they make you feel more and more depressed. They are actually forcing you farther and farther into a depressed
state. 
  - I have learned that even in my crappy life, I actually do have a good part about my life. I have a baby brother,
parents that love me and friends surrounding me. 
So this year, ask yourself a question about yourself, your life and this world. You might surprise yourself.