hi my name is jaydyn (yes I know its spelt weird but I like it ^.^)
but you can call me jadebear thats my nickname as well as j-bear but
only my best friends call me that and jade

my looks..: I am 5'9 1/2(yeah I'm tall) I have purple hair (though my
natural color is reddish brown) and brown eyes k so I dont like how I
look but my guy and gal friends keep saying I'm hot so yeah w/e

pets:2 dogs a toy poodle and a rottie/lab and 2 guinea pigs ^.^

my hobbies: I love to sketch but my main hobbies include writing
little stories for the kids I babysit and coming up with new recipes
and learning new words in sign language

my fave movies are: pirates of the carribean 1,2 and 3 and chronicals
of narnia.

my fave songs:watching you die by jonah33,clothes by barlowgirl and
dead serious by ZoeGirl

my religion:I am a christian 

what I want to be when I am older: a cook

my fave books: isle of swords and the chronicals of narnia books

dating status: I am single and not looking at the moment 

friend status: I am popular I get along with guys better dunno why I
just do so yeah

well thats me if you wanna mail me I wont stop you
ttyl ^.^

      

      
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,strong,nice,funnyandmostimportantchristian





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and now my fave songs ^.^


Watching You Die By Jonah33

Smell the despair in the air tonight
Filling up your lungs as you cry for help!
It's like guns in the middle of streets
Pointing at your head, I don't care to speak
Won't you understand my apathy, my insanity!

Watching you die! watching you die! 
Your blood is on me! I'm
Watching you die! Watching you die
Your blood is on me! I'm watching you die!

Watch as your life fades away... 
Your pain is masked by your decay.
It's like acid dripping in, I see it burn but don't wipe the skin 
It's not my fault once again...but there's blood on my hands!

Watching you die! watching you die! 
Your blood is on me! I'm
Watching you die! watching you die
Your blood is on me! I'm watching you die!

I see the faces in my head,
I hear the screams from the walking dead
Do you know about true regret
To know you lived your life for self
To think of all the chances I let go
...I let go...
...I let go..

Watching you die, watching you die... 
I'm Watching you die, watching you die
Your blood is on me! 
Watching you die, watching you die...
Your blood is on me!
I'm watching you die, watching you die!
Your blood is on me!
I'm watching you die, watching you die
Your blood is on me...
watching you die, watching you die
Your blood is on me...
I'm watching you die!

I'm watching you die!! 




Dead Serious By ZoeGirl


Who's that girl with the Bible in her hands
The smile on her face, she doesn't get it, I don't understand
The way she walks with her head in the clouds
She doesn't care who laughs, walks right through the crowd

That's right, that's me, I don't care what you think
People talk all day, I don't care what they say

You think I'm delirious, a typical reaction
Aren't you curious about my satisfaction
Maybe you're envious, a little curious
You can laugh, but I'm dead serious

Watch her as she goes, there's something different and she knows it
Ask her why, and she'll flash that silly smile
She says she's got a purpose and she's done with all the games
Jesus saved her soul and she'll never be the same

That's right that's me, I don't care what you think
You can talk all day, I don't care what you say

Eternity won't wait for me
I've made my choice, it's where I want to be
All I want to be seen is the light of God shining in me
I may be young, but I am free
You can't change what I believe

That's right, that's me, I don't care what you think
You can talk all day, I'm okay anyway

Serious, I'm serious
You can laugh but I'm dead serious


Clothes By BarlowGirl


Clothes aren't what they used to be
They don't seem to fit you and me anymore
Modesty is out the door
Flaunting what we've got and more is in
Yeah it's in

They're saying
Don't ask why just wear what we say
You'll look like a model if you'll only obey
To get the attention, just do what we say

Pay so much for clothes so small
Was that shirt made for me or my doll?
Is this all I get?
I looked so hot but caught a cold
I was doing just what I was told
To fit in

We're saying let's ask why
Don't wear what they say
Don't want to be a model
They can't eat anyway
That kind of attention will fade with the day
So I'll stand up and say

Clothes that fit are fine
Won't show whats mine
Don't change my mind
I'll be fine


thats all the songs for now ttyl ^.^


and now a work in progress a story

When It Rains

I laid down in a field it was wet and about to rain again but that
didn’t matter nothing in life had a meaning anymore. there was
nothing but white noise, my father screamed and beat me I felt the
pain but everything was quiet I hid my pain under a mask, he had been
drinking again....he was always drinking since...that day..... 



I woke up as my mom called up the stairs, I got out of bed and
quickly got dressed I ran downstairs my mom was ready to go I grabbed
a piece of toast and headed out the door as we were driving to school
my mom said that she might be a little late picking me up today I
shrugged and looked out the window there was the prison I called
school everyone was wearing the same dreary outfit I got out of the
car and my mom called to me "I love you" I shrugged and headed for
the door......

…when I got to the stairs some girls decided that it would be funny
to trip me in front of everyone and they did, I picked myself up and
went inside I wasn’t the most popular girl in school all my old
friends from middle school now ignored me I wasn’t cool enough for
them, they all had boyfriends and were in the cool cliques at lunch
they would sometimes come over to where I usually sat alone normally
it was to make fun of me. I ignored the guys who would make kissy
faces mocking me, I hated my life except the few moments a day I got
a glimpse of him…his name Brian McLane he was the most gorgeous guy
in school he was 6’4 muscular with medium length reddish blond hair
with green eyes every girl in school would kill just for him to ask
them out. He always told them that sorry he wasn’t quite ready for
a girlfriend he was still dealing with emotional issues at home and
having a girlfriend would stress him out more than he could
handle…..
…the bell rang and I headed outside to wait for my mom to pick me
up, an hour later she still wasn’t there so I decided to start
walking home then when I got up I noticed I wasn’t the only one
walking home, there waiting on the stairs was Brian. I walked towards
him as I got closer he looked up at me “so your walking home too
huh?”I asked he nodded and told me that his dad was supposed to
pick him up but he was probably drunk on the couch at home, he said
he didn’t know my name he asked what it was. “Emily” I told him
he said “my names Brian” I told him I already knew he asked where
I lived I told him and he said he lived on the same street. He asked
if I would mind if he walked home with me, I nodded we ended up
talking about our families he told me that his father was a drunk
jerk and his mom had left when he was 5.we got up to my house and he
asked if he would see me at school I said he would so he said ok
I’ll talk to you tomorrow then and started off for his house….
…I got inside and found my dad with a empty beer bottle in his hand
I knew something was wrong he only drank when something was really
wrong, he told me to sit down I did as I was told. He told me that my
mom had gotten into a car accident and that she was in intensive care
at the hospital and that most likely she would most likely not make
it, I was shocked I had been so upset that she had not picked me up
and it was because she was in a car accident. We got ready and drove
to the hospital, I have heard that when you die your life flashes
before your eyes but I have never heard that when somebody important
to you is going to die your memories with them flash before your
eyes….
…”lets go outside “my mom said “but mom its raining “I
replied “exactly” she said with a smile. We ran outside barefoot
we danced in the rain it had been 4 years ago, she looked beautiful
even when she was soaked we always used to go out when it rained….
…I looked out the window as we drove to the hospital until we
pulled up we ran in and asked what room she was in as soon as the
lady in the front told us we rushed there. She looked like she had
been through a tornado her hair looked wild she was all scratched up
and bruised, she opened her eyes and smiled weakly at me she said”
hey my sunshine did you have a good day at school?” I nodded as my
eyes welled up with tears she told me she was sorry she didn’t pick
me up today; I told her it was fine. She looked at herself and said
“I look all messed up” and she laughed I told her that she looked
beautiful. It started to rain and she looked out the window she said
she loved the rain the smell the feel she kissed me on the cheek and
kissed my dad she said she’d see me in heaven and she would look
out for me and with those words she fell limp in her bed she had died
and when she had dropped me off she had said she loved me and all I
did was shrug. I hugged my dad and cried my eyes out I told him I
wanted to go home….
…I cried myself to sleep that night, in the morning I realized that
my mom wouldn’t call for me this morning, my dad had already gone to
work so I would be walking to school today I put a dark hoodie on and
started down my street about half a block up I found that Brian was
walking too so I ran up  he saw me and said hey, he asked why I
didn’t have a ride this morning. I started to cry and he stopped
and asked what was wrong I told him what had happened to my mom. He
said oh then shocked me by hugging me, I hugged him back then we
turned around when we saw a group of girls giggling and staring at
us…
…we walked into school almost everyone was staring at us some were
even pointing and whispering we had a different class for first
period so we split and told each other we’d talk later, in class
someone tapped my shoulder and handed me a note it was from the head
cheerleader Brittany it said:
Dear loser
Brian is mine so back off freak
…I was surprised by the note and later I showed it to Brian and we
laughed, he said that she was just jealous because we were hanging
out, I realized that we had been hanging out at lunch we sat together
and talked we had most of our classes together and we walked to and
from school together…

…after school me and Brian walked home together again we got to my
house, and we said bye then brain said “wait” he walked up the
stairs he said “I know its really soon and everything but I really
like you will you be my girlfriend?” I stood there stunned “y y
y-yes” I answered he smiled and kissed me on the cheek “see you
tomorrow then” he walked away to his house