Sometimes, drawing feels like a chore. .__.
I need to stop taking commissions and stuff on Gaia.
I don't even remember why I started.
Ohyeah. 'Cause someone asked me too. D:
Why is it that I always seem to draw one eye higher than the other? orz|||
soweirdsoweird.
4kp left. I have to be more active. @__@
I don't know what I want to do with life.
Live it, I suppose, but how?
The things I do everyday are the same;
go to school,
come back,
homework,
computer (includes drawing).
Sleep&meals and stuff in there somewhere.
Yes, I do learn new things everyday, and no day is ever the same
but my life schedule seems so... ):
Now that it's exam week, it's pretty much just
Wake
Exam
Back
Draw
Study.
After this week, I don't know what I'll do. D:
Sleep, eat, draw, I guess. How boring. .__.
I feel really pointless. ):
I don't know what I want.
What will I go into when I graduate highschool? [I'm in grade 9]
The only thing I can even think of going into is art,
but
isn't it kind of pointless?
I mean, how would I be helpful to the world?
I don't like drawing diagrams, so I wouldn't be able to help design buildings and
stuff.
Being an animator...everyone wants to be an animator. .__.; They have enough
talented people out there.
Being a comic artist...I'm not good at it overall, but I especially fail at panels.
Freelancing...it's not like anyone would want to commission me; there are plenty of
much more amazing people just on this site, let alone in the world. Plus, would I
even be able to make a living off that, even if people wanted to commission me?
.__.
The best choice might be an art teacher, at a public school or something [if I'm
good enough @__@], but will I be able to teach? .__.;;; Plus I doubt there's much
of a demand for teachers, especially art teachers. Probably science teachers and
stuff.
Guhhhhhh.
Just had to put this somewhere, and hoping to get suggestions and whatnot.
Not a lot of people read diary entries, anyway. ):
Sorry if you actually read that, or if you were kind of bothered by the mass amounts
of text.
I feel so useless. orz|||
- Manyan/oresama
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