wow im not numb and it hurts
everyone i know is in some great relationship w/ someone (including the nameless one i love) and theyre usualy talking
about it, so i always say "im so happy for you!" and on the surface i am, and i really want to be but inside im jealous.
i feel betrayed, hurt, sad, lonely, and out of place when people find love. maybe i want it too bad to find it. i mean,
sure, short-term, sex buddies, is tolerable, timeconsuming and physicly pleasurable but i dont want it to be like this
with every single guy that just so happens to have a nice touch, but i want to mean something to someone, for them to
mean something more to me! idk y im always pms-ing just because im jealous... idk what els i want to tell the world... i
guess this is it.