i just read the saddest book, it was called thirteen reasons why by
jay asher. it has given me
a totaly different perspective on life.
i must say that i am offically quiting cybering as i fell revolting
diisapoint boys!!!!! lol! as i said i cannot lie on this account it
is all about
telling the truth. I CANNOT LIE TO U!!
but... i will not give out my adreess or number. i will n0t give u my
full name all u need to
know is my first name is ayla.you may email me at
or you could just message me on kupika.
the pics of me r real.i really enjoy writing poems and heres one i
I really like him,
More than anyone else,
Compared to him
Everyone else is like rubbish bin,
Like shit on my shoe.
There’s no words to describe the way I feel about him,
Love is too small,
Like even smaller.
My mind won’t stop whirring,
As I memories everything about him,
The dimples when he smiles,
The way his soft back curves,
Like a smooth wave washing over my fingers,
As they desperately try to reach for him,
But No! That is forbidden.
People say friendship
Is better than nothing
But when I sit by him,
Or even when we’re in the same room,
I lose my mind,
Like all gravity has left the earth
And I am left floating…
It’s just a dream
But it feels so real,
“Just a crush” mum says
But she’s wrong, it’s more.
The worst bit about this
Is knowing that I am
Feeling all these things,
I’m going crazy
And all for nothing,
No feelings in return.
My friends say
Friendships the best way
But when all I can do
Is study his every move
Friendship is hate.
Hate for all my friends
For not getting it,
For not understanding.
Its unfair and writing this
I feel like an ungrateful
As I write this I cry,
Tears of hurt,
Tears of love,
Tears of hate for myself
I want not to feel this way.
‘Mates before dates’ they say
Oh I wish it were that easy
I wish life were less complicated,
More wishes that come true
its not true anymore!!! its h0w iused to feel.
QUICK FACTS ABOUT ME.
LIVES paraparaumu new zealand
BODY its ok i have long legs but i think i ahve ugly knees i hate my
DREAM J0B fashi0n designer or writer
LOVES boys (duh im no lezb000!) sewing, writing, reading, shopping,
listening to music , hangong with ma mates
FAV BAND/S panic! at the disco, Fall out boy, Paramore, Disturbed
HATES being called emo, gerkins, cleaning my r00m
FAV ARTIST 1 of my besties kotuku shes amazing
CELEBRITY CRUSH Bwed0n Uire (sigh)
PETS at my mums i have: cat and im getting a rat, at my dads i g0t:
dog fish birds
SIBLINGS i have aa beautiful brother who just turned 1!!!!!!!!!
PARENTS they spilt bef0re i came along but are kind of nice to each
other, my dad has married a
lovely lady called H0llie she is a great step mum!!!!!
SCARED OF darkness, people dying, C0llege ( high sch00l 4
SINGLE/TAKEN im single but l00king c0s i just think it w0uld be nice
to have s0me 0ne that
cares ab0ut me
welll what else do you need to know? just ask away i d0nt care h0w
pers0nal i will always
answer ur question!!
and remember I CAN N0T LIE!!
xx Ayla xx