Monday, 26 December 2011
02:11:55 PM (GMT)
I wish I had the answers to everyone's questions.
I wish I somehow always had the right thing to say.
I wish I could take the pain I know exists in others and make it disappear.
Sometimes I feel like I live in the fantasy world that exists in my brain.
Maybe I could be a superhero, fighting depression, anxiety and loneliness that lurks
around every corner!
Maybe I could use my brain to make everybody's problems go away.
Oh, there it goes again.
I guess there is no miracle cure for everything.
No matter how hard I try, there will be people that feel alone...
People that cut...
People that use drugs as an escape for their problems...
People that get abused...
People that get raped, assaulted and used...
And there will always be the people that get away with it...
I often let the anger get the best of me.
Knowing (and often not knowing) the pain of what some people have been through,
brings back the psychotic man that rarely exists in me.
I feel like sometimes Karma works too slow, and our justice system is crap.
I have a few justice systems of my own that work at a fairly efficient rate.
I think maybe the abused, the depressed, the lonely could work together.
Form an army, protecting those who can't protect themselves.
Taking down rapists, thieves, abusive parents.
Ahh who am I kidding?
Even if this could happen, it would be illegal.
And does using violence to fight violence make us any better than them?
I don't think it does.
In the end, all I can do is try to reach out to as many people as I can.
Try to spread the word of hope, to be the person that cares, even when others don't.
When my life is done, I might not have made much of an impact in the grand scheme of
our planet and species.
Just maybe I could make a difference in one person's life.
And that alone would mean everything to me.
All I can say now is just hold on.
Everything does get better, regardless of what the outcome seems like at the moment.
Even if this life continues to deal you hands that seem unbearable, all it does is
strengthen the very core of who you are.
And after this life is peace you could never even imagine here on Earth.
Just give it a try.
This life can be a very beautiful thing.
Finding someone to talk to.
A warm embrace.
A new song that gives you chills.
A beautiful work of art.
A mountain looming ominously behind a sea of green.
If somehow you miss the beauty that exists in this world, just slow down for a bit.
Take a second to think about how lucky we all are to even have life.
If our planet wasn't exactly where it is, we wouldn't exist, nothing would.
And out of the billions, and trillions of living things that have existed on this
Take a deep breath...
but don't take it for granted.
You mean something.
You can make a difference in someone's life.
And if you stick around to do so, wouldn't that mean everything to them?
Maybe it could mean everything to you as well.
Just hold on...