Saturday, 15 October 2011
09:00:32 AM (GMT)
I have tried my best to eliminate the worry from my life.
So far, I have been unsuccessful, but I have done pretty well.
She is the center of everything in my life.
Right now, she is alive, she is okay.
If we are both breathing, we will still be together.
Neither of us will walk away from something so perfect, when the universe has given
us every sign that we are meant to be with each other.
So I can't worry about her, right?
I still wonder why she chose me.
I don't deserve her.
She could have any guy she wanted.
I wonder if she will leave me, but I am starting to honestly believe what she tells
And if what she says is true, then we will never be apart.
I still worry about something happening, about her getting hurt.
If she is with me, I won't let it happen.
Death, of all things, is something I don't worry about.
I worry about the people I leave behind.
If our time has come, it will come at the same time, whether it was designed that way
I won't live on this earth without her, it is as simple as that.
I am working on my worrying.
Sometimes it is better, sometimes it is worse than it ever has been.
Only time will tell.
I just take comfort in the fact that when it all ends,
we will still be together.
Not just forever.
Not just this world.
Forever and a half.
Wherever our journey takes us.
I love you, Firefly.