Monday, 22 June 2009
11:15:26 PM (GMT)
i will not go, turn the lights off, carry me home,
Seriously, carry me home now.
It's pissing me off, my mom and dad both said that I was
coming home on the 2nd of July. But then mom decides to
come to Kansas and "vacation" before they go to Georgia.
No, who said I wanted that. No one. Just because I told her
once in one lousy email that I wanted to move in with her,
that doesn't mean anything. I was ten. I didn't know what
I was saying. I hate her. I want my dad. And Melissa, yes
I miss her too; even though I always talk shit on her. I miss
Sarah, and Adam. And Zach, suprisingly. I want my Kansas
back. I miss the humidity and how much it would make you sweat,
and the green grass, and the blue sky covered in the puffiest white
clouds any human has ever seen. And all of the trees, and the rain,
and the best thunderstorms ever. And the skunks living under my
porch. And, and, and. My favorite word as of this second. I just want
my Kansas back, now. I need it. It keeps my brain functioning,
and less headaches. El Paso, it kills my head. Gives my migrains. And
makes me lightheaded, every single day. It isn't safe here anyway.
There were 65 murders in Juarez just two weekends ago. I don't like it.
My brother doesn't like it. I miss the tornados. I'm listening to the
Juarez/ElPaso news right now. All I hear is, "murder". I DON'T LIKE IT OKAY.
Get me out, now. Somebody, kidnap me and take me home, and just lock
me in my room until School starts. I wanted this Summer to be one of my
best. But, no. It has been one of my worst. I hate it here. So much,
get me out. NOW. NOW. NOW. NOW. NOW. NOW. Please.
Get me out of this tiny little dump..
Last edited: 22 June 2009