Friday, 18 April 2008
05:36:32 PM (GMT)
Gah, ever since Heaven came for Dottie, I've been overly emotional.
A few days back, I watched The Little Mermaid and I cried at the happy ending.
Today went weird with one of my friends.
For a while, her potty mouth went on a trip.
But I think it may have came back.
She had told me she had read my profile here, and that she saw that my biggest pet
peeve is cursing.
Ever since, I keep hearing her curse more and more.
Finally today, her cursing brought me into the subject.
She was joking of course, but she still said "Lora is a B----" to me.
Then she said "What? Aren't you a female dog?"
I just gave her a "are you stupid?" face and escaped her in my book.
I couldn't concentrate on it, though.
I was too busy thinking how it didn't matter if she was kidding or not.
It still hurt and she never said she was sorry.
I'd have forgiven her, but she never apologized.
Even two periods later, she was like "I thought you were mad at me" and made it seem
like my fault.
Drama. That's what Junior High brings.
Can't wait 'til next year at the High School [[Note the big explosion of sarcasm]].
I internally rolled my eyes, smile a huge grin, and said, "Not anymore! I want to
tell you something!"
[[I forget what I told her though...]]
And then there's this guy.
That's right. A guy.
But I detest-- no that's too big of a word; I don't know him well enough to DETEST
Let's say... don't like him a bit.
Every day, he comes up to me, put his arm around my shoulder, and calls me "Buddy".
I'm fine if Joseph does this because he's... well... literally GAY.
But this a straight, taller teenage boy who could easily overpower me at any given
I just don't like it and am not comfortable.
I wanna say something, but he's also seems to be one of those "nerds" who I can't
exaclty hurt the feelings of.
It'd make me feel like I was slapping a Special Ed.s kid.
Then at lunch, he just plain annoyed me.
He kept scooting closer, until I was squished in the corner.
I said I was tired, and he kept messing with my hand, pointing at the face I drew
between my thumb and index finger, pleading me to make her talk.
I frowned, and he kept nudging me, telling me "C'mon! Be happy!"
I'm sad for a reason, yah dope.
I don't want you around!!
He "walks" me back to class, and I slip into the bathroom.
Once in a stall, I almost cried.
I was so angry at myself!
Why can't I just tell him to leave me alone?
He takes rejection from Joseph and Lindsey so well, why can't I tell him to shut
I stopped myself from crying, got out of the stall, and went back to class.
Then in 7th period, I figured out my other friend started going back out with the guy
who cheated on her with thousands of girls, amoung them my friend's best friend.
I hate that dude...
He's so perverted and rude.
And she could do SO much better.
I came home to Kupika, opening up my friend's diary.
I didn't like what I saw.
So many curses for a 11-12 year old.
I remember being that age...
Everyone still gasped at bad words.
And here she was using the F words.
I'm sad at that person...
Then in her next I saw one more.
It's not personal or anything, but it gets on my nerves to see people using words
like that so lightly.
Then I put some puzzle pieces together and figured out my best friend in the whole
wide world might not get to spend the night at my house...
That did it.
That brought all the events rushing back to me and I cried while unloading the
I hugged a cabinet, wishing that I could crawl in and never be found.
I could, if it weren't for the fact that I'm scared that cockroaches would crawl up
My life has been weird ever since Dottie.
I never cried like this at these type of things.
I need to go back to bottling up xD