Wednesday, 2 January 2008
03:48:32 AM (GMT)
In 2007 I turned 12.
I had my first REAL boyfriend,
And made so many REAL friends,
I had my first REAL kiss.
I fell in love for the first time,
I got cheated on for the first time,
My heartbroke for the first time.
I cried myself to sleep for the first time,
I cut myself for the first and last time,
I performed infront of an audience for the first time.
I had my 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th and 7th boyfriend,
But i still loved the 1st more than ever before.
I dumped my boyfriend,
And was hated by someone I cared about for the first time,
I lost my best friend,
And all my other friends had to leave.
I was alone for the first time,
I didnt know how to handle.
In 2007 at midnight,
A guy asked me out,
I said yes,
He is still my boyfriend,
I dont love him,
No where near as much as I loved my first.
My ex best friend ask me why,
I would go out with him,
If my heart belonged to another,
I said that I didnt want to be alone.
I needed someone to love me,
I said she could call me a slut,
That i didnt blame her if she did,
She said to me,
Your not, I actually understand you.
Now I'm waiting for the start of my beginning,
Wishing this year is better then last.