Monday, 12 November 2007
04:12:02 AM (GMT)
Dear Nisshi (Diary..I think),
Song: The Art of Suicide - Emilie Autumn
Kawaii-Kun of the day: L from Death Note
Location: On Emo Farm
Things have been ok, I guess.
I went to the Zero Day Anime convention on Saturday, that was fun. But I didn't stay
long enough to see a band called the "Snags" perform, & I wanted to meet Amelie
Belcher..So I'm quite bummed. Even though I saw a Konan there & got a free hug, that
was pretty cool ^^.
Though lately I've been questioning stuff.. Stuff like, why are we here? What's my
purpose? Do I even HAVE a purpose? Things like that. Also, the whole "Is god
really real" thing has been bugging me too. -Sigh- Nothing makes sense in my life at
this moment. But that's only because I'm a teenager, therefore I've gone temporarily
I just realized, that I have no true friends in my life. The only people I hang out
with (which is like two or three) most likely pity my existence & feel sorry for me.
I can never find anyone to relate with, my mom won't listen to my questions of pure
curiosity. One of those questions: "Is God real?"..She simply dismisses it & goes
about her business as if I never asked. I hate it. I've also been questioning my
artistic skill. I know I'm not that good..on the other hand, I'm a mere 13 years of
age. I think I'm pretty good, but I still question wither those skills will flourish
or not. I don't know, but hopefully I'll be able to put my artistic mind to work
Oh, also I had the WEIRDEST dream..but that's for another time....
Thanks for listening,
Isabelle, on Emo Farm