Wednesday, 23 May 2007
11:08:36 PM (GMT)
Well my mom was crying when ever we were at my grandma's house when they were
talking. I wanted to know what she was crying about so I asked her....she looked at
me with her eyes covered in tears and told me she would tell me later...I said ok.
they kept on talking and I went with her to wal-mart and while were on the way there
I was talking about something then she interuppted me and said that the cancer that
my grandma has....they cant do surgeri on it...I stoped talking......I bit down on my
jacket sleeve and looked down. I thought i was going to cry my eyes out. But i hed it
in I stoped talking for a while then my mom just thought of something else to talk to
about. then I started to talk again. I didn't know what to do when she told me that.
I felt like I wanted to lay on the floor and just die there. I didn't know what else
to think. It hurt to much to even hear it. When I went over to her house one day she
wanted to talk to me about it, so we talked and she told me not to worry about her
with cancer. I told her ok. But god I worry so much it hurts to even think about. I
don't know really why she would say that but I worry so freaking much. I have loved
her for so long, it seems like it was just yesterday I was at her house down at the
lake halping her make dinner and out on the back porch just watching the eagles fly
above us or watching the beavers and staying the night there and watching the deers
rome around every where. And she is telling me not to worry about her dieing. I care
and worry so freakin much. If she die's I'm going to cry so much it will hurt me so
much. And.....I don't even know what else to say but this hurts me alot. And thats i
am going to say.