Wednesday, 24 January 2007
06:24:03 PM (GMT)
Today I met a guy named Jeremy.
And Ross and Micheal too!
I feel so important to have friends in America!
I felt so left out with out friends.
Victoria called last night!
She says she misses me so much.
It hurts me too, I told here that.
And she asked if there was anything fun coming up.
I told her a dance was coming up.
She got real quite and asked if I had a date.
I laughed and said I barely was known, how should I even have a date.
She laughed and said I was right.
I miss her so bad it hurts!
Amazing.....that was scary.
Last night I got a call, but amazingly it made me so scared when it used to make me
My ex-boyfriend called.....
He's out of juvee.
I'm so scared of him.
Why would they let him out???
What good behavior does he have?
He was mean to me some times, but never horrible.
I never thought he was so ghastly until the night I broke up with him.
It's my secret past many people don't know about, and I hope no one else ever does.
It's sad, what he did.
He flat out killed a girl.
After I told him hit the road.
He beat her and left her for dead.
She was in a comma for two months, her parents pulled the pulg.
I was there, to tell them I was so sorry.
To tell them it was my fault.
They said I had ever right to tell him it was over, but he had no right to hurt their
daughter, their little girl.
I told them I was sorry again and again.
I was at the funeral, when people weeped and wore black.
I told them all it would be okay.
They asked who I was, I wasn't able to tell them that my ex-boyfriend killed her.
He says he missed me, he said he was sorry and wanted to see me so we could talk.
I told him don't count on it.
But, if I did meet him, I told him it would be at her grave.
He hung up and I cried.
Then I called Ataur, he said it would be okay.
He said he would watch for him.
Then Ross called, oh sweet Ross, you're so clueless.
It was hard to not weep on the phone.
I knew he heard the saddness in my voice.
And the pure, raw fear that made my voice quiver.
But I knew he was afraid to ask what was wrong.
Being that we hadn't even really gone out.
He was wonderful, I wonder how I got that.
Jess sounded a bit shoken up when I talked to her last night.
I wonder what was on her mind.
I worry about her.
I think she is afraid of her past and what it can do to her.
I think she thinks I will tell my friends what I know and let the whole school know.
I think she is very afraid.
I hope she is okay.
I hope what ever is happening to her will go away.
So pretty and sweet!
I wish she would understand me.
Oh Micheal, kind but rude.
Simple yet sweet.
Purfectly abnormal to an extent like Jess.
I do like him!!
School note: "The Dance Will Be Held Friday, January 30th From 7:00-11:00 p.m.
Tickets On Sale Tomorrow!"
I put no speech because this is a reflection chapter.