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Almost Lover,Category: (general)
Tuesday, 8 November 2011
01:24:09 AM (GMT)
They say age is just a number.....they lied... I must be an utter idiot. I never even thought about it It must be karma. I felt that feeling, For the first time since him and it was real. It was so real. But then again... it wasn't. The feeling, is something that was out of my reach. he, was out of my reach. I wish he was closer.. In both distance and age. It's silly, I never thought it would happen. I assumed, due to who introduced us That he was maybe 16. I was so wrong. Though I think, he assumed the same thing. It's silly. You can call me an idiot. I really didn't know him for long at all But from the first time I talked to him I just got this, feeling. It felt right. All of it. It was just right. Everything. And he was just perfect. In every single way. We were, exactly like each other In all of the right ways. We wanted the same type of relationship We like the same music, Spend our time doing the same random shit, Feel the same way about things in general, Have similar pasts, Operate in similar ways. He was just overall the closest thing to perfection I've ever met. But, I guess this is why they say Perfection doesn't exist. It's more tuned to-- What's perfect for you Will never be yours. But someone else who thinks they aren't perfect. I can truly tell you. I love this person. Even though I didn't know him long I love him more than anything And knowing that It's age that is in the way Age, which is mere numbers. Is stopping me. Kills me. It's eating me alive. To a point of killer depression, and not being able to eat. I.... Maybe I will move on, I really don't know When ever I try to talk to him It's awkward. Even though we agreed to be friends I guess, it is only natural... I know for a fact That just knowing him like that For those few days Has changed my life. Really it has. In so many ways. How I think. How I feel. It's mind blowing to know people like that exist. That Im able to feel such feelings. I adore it. I just wish I could hold onto them forever and make him, make those feelings-- mine and mine alone. But it's truly impossible, in the view that, It wont happen. No matter how hard you try, it won't. Right now? We'll see how it goes. For now, Just having him in my life in some way, even as a friend It's made my life, better in so many ways, Even if the fact that age is in a way eats me alive I'll somehow make it. He'll always be That one person, My almost lover " Goodbye, My almost lover. Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let be So long my luckless romance My back, is turned on you Should've know you'd bring me heartbreak Almost lovers, always do.~"

‹Kairos› says:   8 November 2011   336616  
L O V E .
JulietsSecret says:   8 November 2011   581881  
sucks v__v 
‹Kairos› says:   8 November 2011   436407  
If sucks means amazing then
Yes IT T O T A L L Y sucks  
‹SuperSillyPsychoSloth› says:   8 November 2011   734843  
I really really love this
JulietsSecret says :   9 November 2011   397213  
Agreed, haha 

Thank you~
It's from my heart c: 


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