Thursday, 18 August 2011
04:50:32 AM (GMT)
In the end, I held the gun,
under my chin,
pulled the trigger,
my blood splat on the wall above,
all this madness,
all your fun,
ending in a breath,
a chill up my spine,
and the suicide that raced through my mind.
you killed me slowly inside.
You had no hope in me.
I was just that kid.
You laughed and used me.
Taunted my will.
I told you I'd do it.
I told you I'd let my blood spill.
You didn't care.
You shrugged it off.
That fucked with my heart.
It fucked with me hard.
You couldn't possibly imagine the pain u brought.
Like a stormcloud looming over my heart.
Your lightning would pop and your thunder would crack,
crisping my heart,
and refusing to give it back.
You played with my trust my feelings my soul.
I gave you everything and it wasn't enough yet still took it's toll.
I wish you could see the pain you left like a fairy being stomped by a troll.
I thought you loved me at first
I thought you wanted to be held
I thought my love for you would burst
But you opend up and showed the true you.
The you that would abuse.
Gain my trust then fuck it over
Sleep with others then tell me to suck it up
You said you'd be mine forever
In the end forever was over
With a bullet through my brain
And opend wounds on my wrists
A broken, lost love filled thought
And the ending of a poor boys heart.