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InsomniaCategory: Deep
Monday, 5 July 2010
01:05:31 PM (GMT)


Heart beats slower, softer, lighter.
Eye burn, but I can not mend them.
I play with the mini, neon-red lighter
and I sleep as best as I possibly can.

Too bad it's not a lot, I just can't sleep.
I lie awake, night after night, after night.
By day, my concentration, I can barely keep
It's just another day I'm going to have to fight.

I'm tired, but I'm not. I want to dream.
I'm hyper, but I can't be. I yawn too many times.
So mad, so sad, I just want to scream.
Awake because of the one thing on my mind.

Tonight, I'm awake because of someone.
I don't think it's really true, so I don't trust it.
When I think of him, I feel like I'm coming undone.
I stay awake at my computer and in my chair, I sit.

No rest. No sleep. No peace. No joy.
I feel much like a porcelean doll.
Sittingon the shelf, eyes open, creepy toy.
Praying and wishing that I would fall.

Shatter into a million pieces, sleep at last.
Broken, but saved, I would sleep away.
Like I used to, back in my lonely past.
But that won't happen. Not tonight, not today.

I'll just sit here, eyes open and wide.
I'll just stand there, unable to feel
Much of anything. I've got nothing to hide.
I just want that place that's so unreal.

I just want to dream again...

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