Saturday, 6 June 2009
05:59:44 PM (GMT)
I wrote this to let all my thoughts out.
I wrote this so you can read it.
No comments needed.
today i learned that life has no meaning.
i learned that all these cuts a bruises were pointless.
i also found out that no even fucking cares.
today i went through my mother's letters and found something.
she left me a letter saying how much she hated me.
i tore it up.
today i learned how to talk to people.
i learned they are retards, so i have to scream and waist my time.
what a shame.
my mother died today, in front of me.
i didn't know what to do.
i carried her body home, and buried her in secrecy.
now, i'm back to point one, all alone again.
a year has passed and i am still not changing.
my life is a wreck and i've attempted suicide to make it stop.
all they tries failed.
i stick needles in my arms to ease the pain, i end of crying.
i haven't been eating the proper foods lately.
i've been eating all the old things and bits of bread even though my fridge is full.
what the hell is with that?
i learned my life is pointless.
why live in a world where no one cares for you anymore?
why live in a world where bitches lie and say:
"oh i'll be there for you, hun."
i spilled blood today.
you heard me.
no go away.
i learned that when people try and play fight with me,
i start crying from the painful memories of getting hurt.
will you hurt me again?
it's all over.
i'm all alone.
in my own little world.
fuck you 21th century.
fuck you world.
and fuck you for causing the world to go on.
This, once again, is just for me to get it all out.
This is not directed at anyone.