Friday, 3 October 2008
12:53:17 AM (GMT)
History of it all...
I met my friend (let's call him Nathan) almost 4 years ago. It'll be four years in 2
weeks because I remember me and my very best friends (Nathan and Cassandra) all met
the same day 1 week after my birthday. SO anyway, we all went to the same school in
6th grade. He were BFFFFFS. Then he changed schools, she changed schools and
eventually moved to NC. Me and Cassandra talked on the phone everyday and we still do
to this day! Infact she comes over during the summer and we're going on a cruise
sometime in November. ANYWAY, after middle school me and Nathan had seen each other
very rarely and I'd always had the feeling that Nathan liked Cassandra. WELL I saw
him just before the end of middle school at the high school interviews and we gave
each other this HUGE hug. (I had been nervous but after that I was fine!) SO all
summer I talked about him and talked about him and was pissed off because he wouldn't
e-mail me and call me and I never got around to getting his number. (In totally we
all talked one the phone once with my cousin (Maria) and Cassandra. I freaked out
because his voice was HOT. I mean SMEXIN HOT!
SO I get to school (9th grade now) and I think I see this guy on the steps that looks
like Nathan. He moved like him but I was like "No, Nathan had longer hair!" well long
story short, it was him!! And we're hugged every time we see each other since.
FLASH TO NOW
Wednesday we went to the fair and it was so fun! We shared a soda (2 straws), shared
some dippin dots (I didn't want to hold them, the SORT OF, but not in a mouth
touching spoon way, fed em' to me), and got ripped off (15 bucks!) my carnies. lol
The whole thing though is that, it wasn't really flirty or anything it was just like
idk we were just friends even though when I think about it we did look like we were
dating. I wore all black, he wore all black we stayed right beside each other we kept
being retarded! Once we were talking about what would happen if someone thew up on
this cages in Ferris wheel thing (only it was ovular) and we were like "It would be a
whole chain reaction of people barfing on each other!" and it was gross but funny.
Then we were like "let's walk down a dark alley!" and then the other said "So we can
beat someone up and steal their money!" and so we were walking pass this old man and
Nathan says "I think a dark alley's this way." the old man gave us the funniest look
ever!! OMG! And we were running from the sound of country music and I stole the last
of the dipping dots and ran it was cool. SO at the end of the night my mom swears up
and down he kissed me but I was like "No, HELL NO, I don't remember that." she also
says "You guys touch way too much!" (but not in a parental "stop touching!" way in a
"he-he you've got a bf" way) Weird thing is, I wouldn't mind dating him even though
he scares all my other friends (except Cassandra) and my mom doesn't like the fact
that he's atheist.
He's not the common definition of hot, but he has this thing about him where it's
like reverse psychology! He pushes you away (in a away) and says mean stuff but it's
like you still want to be around him and like him, even though he's actually a REALLY
MY problem: Read the title. I think he likes me, I think he knows I like him, I think
I could tell him, and yet still my ever growing fear of "we're just friends" keeps
coming back to me.
Last edited: 4 October 2008