Saturday, 30 June 2007
12:39:10 AM (GMT)
Its almost three in the morning and i started thinking bout my ex boyfriend when i
sat here reading..
I miss him like hell and still love him, even if he was a real jerk and a bastard..
He says he still loves me, so why aint he here?
He´s with some stupid fucked up girl that(i honestly belive) is a slut.
It´s...GAH! i cant even find a word for it!
I hate him, i love him...where´s the difference?
And i cant do anything to get over him either... i´ve tried many guys but no one
can replace him..its just that.
Maybe i have to accept that im gonna be alone for like.. eternity..
Sometimes i wish i was a guy... i meen.. they want their girls to be innocent but
confident and sexy, dont show too much skin but still enough so the other guys can
they cant have, we cant be friends with other guys and all they think bout is sex.
My 'boyfriend' is kinda pissed at me just ´cuz i dont want to be with him every day
i refuse to go in thight jeans/shorts and a deep-cut tight top.
You see my point?
I even cut myself but he havent noticed..and he tells me that im his everything!
His everything, in my ass!
yare yare..gutta save something for some self pity tomorrow.
Current mood: Angry but still depressed.
Current music: Like a boy - Ciara