Sunday, 16 January 2011
12:38:59 PM (GMT)
oh and you finally texted me last night with a cheery, "ello mate" like nothing was
but to me, everything is.
it took a while for me to decide how to respond to you, so i just showed the text to
caitlin, closed my phone, placed it back in my pocket, and watched the movie.
when i did respond, the conversation didn't last long.
i never liked the way you texted.
with your short "oks" and "lols".
i had a hard time keeping a conversation with that.
i finally asked the question i had been wondering about, "what happened between last
wednesday when you didn't want me to leave, and sunday?"
you said you didn't know, things just felt wrong.
i think i get it now, but i'm still hanging onto everything from before.
everything i could have done right but did wrong.
the possibility that you would still feel like things were right if only you had
given me more of a chance.
i just want to let go, but that's the hardest thing for me to try to do.