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Saturday, 9 January 2010
09:05:10 PM (GMT)
The New years has been great *rolls eyes*
Last week on December 30th, My mom dies..
Reason? Cancer spread through out her body she had infesima, amonia, and a bacterial
infection... Basically she was sick..

Had a great new years eve *rolls eyes again* i love crying my eyes out... then crying
so much i fall asleep just to wake up 10 minutes later crying because of the sadd
dream i had.
New years day? Even better we had to start planing for the veiwing then the Funeral.

January 2, sucked even more... My moms birthday... >.< WAIT! it gets better

I go to the veiwing January 4th, and wait my cousin Jessica walkes up to the coffin
with me and i cant go too close but i still manage to cry... i saw my mom once before
she got cremated... I went up to her coffin once when i got there and i closed my
eyes when i walked up with friends... 

The Next Day January 5th, Missed school for the service.. Sadest day ever..
Not onyl did i NOT cry **i feel lieks hit for not once crying at my moms funeral**
but i went up and talked infront of peope i looked up i saw my brothers and sister
and dad crying. Me? Did i cry? No... i felt liek shit and still doo! 

Missed school That day too.. i would have loved to see my friends again...  

After the funeral, i got to go through my moms clothes and find what id wear, I got
new clothes at least... 
I got a new jacket and camera... My ex Preston, his dad gave me a cord to upload pics
Its battery operated... **yelles** "Dad i need chargeable batteries!"

Snow days rest of the week.. GREAT! Ive now missed a complete of 3 weeks of school! 
Schools now pushed into june... And past my birthday *cries* this is just great... 

NOW you knwo how sucky my life is... And my new new decade is... HAVE fun this year
dont do things you'll regret....
Because that what ima doo...


Oroborus21 says:   9 January 2010   322990  
im so sorry sara, 

i hope you wont do too much or harm yourself ok. the best way to
cherish your mother's memory is to always try and make her proud of

talk to me anytime you need a friend love. *hugs again*
‹Twilight Night› says:   9 January 2010   149951  
Its fine, Im the youngest of the family its gonna be hard on meh. 

I wasnt thinking of harming myself... Just doing things i knwo ill
Basically having thoughts of drinking till i pass out, Smoking unil i
have cancer liek ym mom....

Tho i cant do that, and wont do that for a few reasons,
1. I have to help my dad out with money managements.
2. I WANT to grow up get married and have children
3. Ive planned my whole life out already i cant stopp the prosses
4. If i die, it'll just make things worse for everyone
--And everyone already knows how much a burdon i am to my damn

SO im not going to harm myself....
Basically the goal for this family is to make money and managae the
house again..

I will eddie.... 
‹Twilight Night› says :   9 January 2010   145738  
Ill talk to you if i need to... 


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