Saturday, 18 July 2009
02:44:04 PM (GMT)
So...my life today went from great & amazing,
Why do people keep letting me down?
And hurting me?
And don't even care?
Why do YOU keep abandoning me?
And making me feel like this?
I'm sitting here crying and throwing up and shaking b/c,
I can't handle it anymore.
What happened to the MK...
That everyone wanted to hang out with and talk to everyday?
I keep getting.
And. I hate it.
With everythign going on,
And people say ''If you don't let something out you'll have a meltdown''...
I REALLY hope this is it.
B/c I don't think I could live with something any worse.
I haven't slept, honestly, since Thursday morning.
I said yesterday, but I lied.
And tomorrow I'll lie again.
I just spilt my GUTS out to someone I thought could actually say something to help
All he has to say is ''Alright. I'm gunna go take a shower. ttyl.''
After he has BEEN THROUGH 1/2 of this shit.
I don't know if he's nervous, or scared to talk about it.
I can't breathe anymore.
Every thought was about you.
And, I don't know why in the hell I love you so much right now.
I, I think I'm crazy :/
My heart, hurts.
Which makes my body hurt.
And, I can't even do what I love to do anymore.
I can't get on a horse w/out feeling SOME KIND of pain.
Or play with a horse w/ just...getting slowed down.
This needs to stop.
Or...I really don't know what I'm gonna do.