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Tuesday, 28 April 2009
09:49:50 AM (GMT)
This was something i did a while ago and i was really bored so i decided to post it
up here =/

The clock reads 6:53 with its red led numbers lighting up your dark room. Then the
ring of Eminem’s voice echoes through the darkness, the singing coming from you
semi-handicap cell phone. You flip open the phone and your heart pumps out of your
chest at the sight of the caller id. You quickly answer with a breathless hello and
he answers back with a calm, love filled, “Hey, what’s up?”
             After about 104 minutes of heart filled exchanges of I ‘love yous’
and tearful ‘goodbyes’ and ‘I’m gonna miss yous’, he tells you that his mom
needs to borrow the phone and he tells you he’ll call back. You say ok and hang up.
You grasp you phone in you hands as the held back tears begin their downfall. He
always told her never to cry because you were too beautiful to cry. But you ignore
his words and cry in the dark protection of your room. You cry because you don’t
want him to leave. You cry because you know he has to. You cry because you know
he’s going to replace you with another girl better then you in every way. You also
cry because you didn’t think he was telling you the truth when he told you that he
loved you. He is a flirt and it hurts you so much. You think the chicks he flirts
with have something you don’t. You change for him. Your shirts get lower and lower.
Your jeans get tighter and tighter. You do more for him. You try to be like his ex
girlfriends that he tells you about almost every night on the phone. But he still
flirts and sometimes, it seems like it’s even more and more everyday. Then your
tears come harder and there seems to be no end. You want to be his everything but you
just don’t think you are good enough for his heart. You cry wishing you could just
disappear so he could get you out of his life. 
            Now your stupid clock is telling you it’s 8:42 and as if he was
watching you cry in the darkness, his name appears as Eminem sings from your phone.
You don’t even think about whipping your waterfalls of your face before answering
with a strained ‘hello’. He says his normal greeting and the conversation about
promises, scars, love suicide and packing boxes began. 
            About 27minutes go by and he says something that makes your heart
"If only we were like 10 years older." He pauses and repeats "If only…"
At the moment you’re still recovering from the heart blackout and how random the
comment was to see his true intentions. 
            "What do you mean?" You say still breathless. 
            "You know, if only we were in out twenties........" and his voice trailed
off. Then it hits you like a semi going as fast as a bullet train. He wanted you
forever. Tears unwillingly pour down your already wet cheeks and drip onto your
pillow. If you were at least 23, he would propose to you. He would want you to become
his wife both in sickness and in health. A pain drenched smile forces its way onto
your tear covered face. You talk a little more about it and then he adds, "See, not
all of my fantasies are bad!" He laughs triggering a loud laugh from you, considering
it was the truth. Most of his other fantasies are evolved the perverted mind of his
and of course you. Then the sound of ripping duct tape is heard in the background.
You’re just about to ask about the sound when he changes the subject back to his
love towards you. 
            15 minutes clock by and he asks if he can call tomorrow. Without thinking
about your plans you tell him yes. 
                                    You exchange goodbyes 
                                             I love yous 
                                         And goodnights 
You hesitate when it’s time to hang up. After almost a minute of silence you
finally press end. Once his face appears as your cell phone background tears come for
another round. 
                        You never want to stop hearing his deep voice in your ear 
                        You never want to stop feeling his soft touch on your pale
and cold skin 
                        You never want to stop joking with him about each others
                        You never want to lose him so you cry and cry with no
intentions of stopping. His words of unconditional love echoes in your head as you
cry yourself into a sleep that is filled with his addicting hazel eyes, his
glistening white smile, his almost black hair and wedding bells later on muted by the
laughter of a baby.

HNB180 says:   28 April 2009   167936  
wow that is romantic
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   28 April 2009   364961  
well thank you ^.^ it actually happened to me =)
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   29 April 2009   168624  
awwwwwwwww this is so sweet, romantic and sad is your bf moving
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   29 April 2009   434111  
Thank you ^.^
yea he is ='( but we see eachother alot on the weekends tho, so its
ok. im glad you liked it. I might be posting more on here too
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   29 April 2009   866929  
yay i cant wait to read more is he moving far from you
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   29 April 2009   728586  
thanks again =3
yea im in spring hill (fl) and he's moving all the way to zephrill
hills (fl)
its about 2 or 3 counties away
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   29 April 2009   397182  
so wen is he leaving
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   29 April 2009   587266  
ah he left a couple weeks ago.
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   30 April 2009   133789  
awwwwww im so sorry do you guys talk often
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   30 April 2009   618696  
yea we do =)
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   1 May 2009   714894  
well thats really gud
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   1 May 2009   663432  
yea ^.^
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   9 May 2009   711111  
guys wat today is my birthday yay im 14 and hope you to are goin gud
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   12 May 2009   732886  
Awww happy b-day! sorry i missed it  and thanks, we're doing great
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   12 May 2009   864151  
Thanks it feels gud to be 14. My bf kinda said the same thing to me
about when were older. But in a different way.
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   12 May 2009   718223  
awwwwwww =3 u HAVE 2 send me a pic of him or something. i HAVE 2 noe
what he looks like. im gona go crazy or something. lol
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   13 May 2009   392682  
Lol. I dont have a pic of him on my laptop. But hes gonna send it
soon. He is like the best bf ever. Look at my dairy " This is how my
bf asked me to be his gf" Btw It was his 4th time asking me to be his
gf. lol
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   13 May 2009   628878  
awwwww. lol
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   14 May 2009   182239  
we are both so lucky
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   14 May 2009   472141  
i know right!!! lol i was thinking the same thing!
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   15 May 2009   427961  
lol our bfs are the greatest lol
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   17 May 2009   567684  
i know right!!!!! lol
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   17 May 2009   413154  
i wanna call him so badly but im so scared
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   17 May 2009   592751  
why are you scared to call ur bf???
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   18 May 2009   292747  
lol cuz of my mom
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   18 May 2009   879573  
why? whats wrong with her that you cant call ur bf?
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   19 May 2009   141788  
Cuz im allowed to have one. And I didnt plan on having one. But he
was so Michael.
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   19 May 2009   831272  
that kinda stinks =P
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   19 May 2009   489141  
Yes. it really does. I always say his number over and over again. I
might call him wen my moms not home.
‹<3 Alison› says:   19 May 2009   498239  
your really good!
I actually cried
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   20 May 2009   263856  
@ fallen_grace~~~ You should totally call him!!! just use this as an
example of why you sould call him! AWESOME things can happen on the

@ Allison_M~~~ thank you! yea it seems to have that affect on alot of
people =D 
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says:   20 May 2009   222588  
yea ur rite but i have to wait till my mom n dad r out of the house
‹She'llFlyThatBlackHawkDown♥.› says:   20 May 2009   593558  
thats soooo cute
‹~Sheri'sBeautifulDisaster~› says :   22 May 2009   419591  
no its dangerous 
i love your new name


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