Saturday, 7 February 2009
05:11:07 AM (GMT)
My mind will blow up very soon. I'm lost in my identeties, wants and needs. And all
of this started with PE.
The second semester PE classes were anounced today. Here are the choices:
Mr. B.: indoor fitness and basketball
Ms. B.: Dance
Ms.D.: softball and dancedancerevolution.
Mr.H.: field games ,like rugby, and soccer.
I picked one of these right away. When they were anouncing, I was waiting for this
choice to come up. Mr.H. Reasons? Plenty.
1)I want to play soccer!!!
2)ML(i've decided to give him a first and a last letter) is going to be there...not
that i like him or anything.
3)A girl who plays rugby... now that's interesting!(and truly facinating!!!)
Ok, I know that's not PLENTY, but still... i think 3 reasons is enough. Oh, and the
fourth one is that i'm completley against playing softball(because in Russia we
didn't play it so i don't want to feel like a dum girly girl who doesnt know the
rules), dancing(i just can't do my stretches- that's why i left ballet when i was 3)
or basketball( i wan't a change- i've been playing basketball for 3 or 4 years in
So... why am i lost then? Because I don't know who i want to be anymore. I want to be
a cool surfer chick, an awsomelly drawing geek (strange, i know), a tough jock-girl,
an artistic and punky musician AND a mystirious, lonely loser(again- strange, i
know). I guess I just want to be me. Even if i'm so much people. Who do you think i