Monday, 1 September 2014
08:06:37 PM (GMT)
So today, as I was walking through town I was thinking about how confident people
think I am.
I don't think I am a confident person, but all my friends and most of my family think
I am. They all say things like 'I wish I had the confidence to dye my hair all the
colour you do.' When all I think to that is, they're wrong.
I don't dye my hair to show how confident I am within myself. I dye my hair because
it makes me seem confident.
It's basically a mask.
When I dye my hair bright colours, it enables me to pretend I am a confident person.
I can talk to most people without issue. But before I go and talk to them, I have
arguments with myself about whether or not it's a good idea. I can join in on stupid
things at college and dress up like a fool for charity, but only if my friends are
doing it as well.
I know this probably makes no sense.
It does to me though.
I'm not a confident person, I just pretend I am.