Thursday, 14 November 2013
08:24:01 PM (GMT)
Sometimes being 'better' than other people really sucks.
I really don't want my friends to feel like I'm better-- I want them to feel like I'm
Not that person whose lowest grade was an 87% on their report card. (Which, in
Canada, is considered an A due to differences in grading.)
Not that girl who draws better than you, writes better than you. I don't want to be
the girl who knows where she's going in her life when you don't have a clue.
I don't want to be that girl who always gets that little percent higher on their
I want to be that girl whose company you enjoy, who is a cause of your laughter, who
listens when you just need somebody to BE there for you.
I never want to be the source of envy.
And maybe I'm not, and that's perfect for me.
I know I'm not 'beautiful', I'm awkward and clumsy and ungrateful sometimes.
I know that I'm uncoordinated and seem to be missing a lot of basic knowledge in the
But when my best friend says she hates me, jokingly, sometimes I wonder if she really
And when I do well on my report card, I kind of hope nobody will ask.
When I draw something new, I kind of hope nobody will make a big deal of it.
Me, I don't feel talented, though others seem to think so.
I just hope they won't ever ENVY me for it.