Saturday, 1 September 2012
10:39:04 PM (GMT)
And no, my period is nowhere near due.
I just fall into chronic depression episodes,
except I try not to let it rule me over because nobody likes a sad bum, huh?
The acne cleanser isn't working as much as it did for the first few days.
Not like I have severe acne, but I have a bunch of blackheads and shit on my forehead
and they won't go away >.<
I almost cried.
And I'm home alone for the weekend. With my brother.
Mom said not to ride my bike while she was gone, but I'm 16,
so I'm naturally going to disobey her, but I still feel guilty as fuck.
Why do I get so damn depressed all of a sudden?
My parents are still together and they love me,
my mom is letting me take private voice lessons,
I have a small but reliable handful of friends (Who needs a lot when you have
close friends who actually care about you?)
I have all the classes I wanted including Chorale, vocal ensemble (show choir, yes,
go ahead and call me lame),
aquatic science and AP English,
I have a boyfriend whom is quite a band geek...
And no wine. fak.
Our house is liquor-free.
Not that I enjoy vodka, whiskey, or tequila, but I do enjoy a glass of red wine.
I guess I'll settle for green tea.
It'll calm my strange depression.
Maybe I'm just a spoiled brat.
Maybe I'm just a stupid teenager.
Why do I feel like the world is against me and
What have I done wrong?
I'm really sweet and I try to be nice to everyone and
make all those around me happy...