Monday, 17 October 2011
04:25:09 PM (GMT)
I wonder if I have even been awake for the past three months.
I always thought I might find somebody.
A girl that won't treat me like crap.
I was starting to think it might never happen.
Then she walked into my life.
The dark haired angel that changed everything.
I love her to death, but it is so hard to believe that someone so perfect could even
It doesn't seem possible.
I have never met anyone remotely close to how amazing she is.
She has everything I could ever want and need in a woman, then throw in all the
awesome things I overlooked.
I try to believe it, I honestly do.
Days without her are hard.
I don't feel like myself, even though we always talk throughout the day.
I worry about everything.
Nothing is interesting or fun to me.
I stay in my room.
I don't talk to anyone.
I don't get out and do things.
It's like I don't believe she really loves me until she is in my arms again.
I wish it didn't have to be like that.
I wish I could be happy on my own, but I will never let her go for anything.
One day we can spend every day together, and it will be more than worth waiting for.
I know I will be better firefly, don't worry about me.
I just need to find my center when I am alone, and keep it there.
It's just so hard sometimes.
I will be better.
I will be there for you, always.
Don't ever for a second think you are going to lose me.
You know as well as I do that I could never let you go.
You are the best thing that has and ever will happen in my life.
You are the most amazing woman in the world.
One day I will wake up from this dream and respect how perfect everything has
Until then, I'll hold on to you tight and try to be the man you need me to be.
I love you, Jesse.