Tuesday, 14 September 2010
12:29:21 AM (GMT)
I feel it comming closer
I may be wrong
but I feel it.
I'm scared,but at the same time,calling for it
I know something is different,I'm not sure what
but there is something definitely different
I feel bound,like I can't think for myself,but I do,I just can't express it
I've been so controlled my whole life,
it's so bad that when I'm asked what I want,
I usually don't know what I want,
I can't,I have no way of knowing,I don't get the choice much
so much for freee will
my emotions, I haven't learned to control yet.
I'm not sure who I am.
everything never stays too long
it changes too quickly
it slips through my fingers like water,I can't grasp anything
I'm different,that's for sure
now everything else,
I'm not suree
I can't decide who I want to be,
how I want to feel
,what I want to do,
I can't even decide what I want,
everyone tries to decide for
then get's pissed when I rebel...
then just pawns my feeling ans actions off on just being a 'normal teenager'
have they ever thought that I'm just trying to espcape?
that I'm screaing and screaming for dear life?
screaming to be let free?
I want so bad,more than anything,to be free
I just dont' know how to be