Tuesday, 6 July 2010
04:46:36 PM (GMT)
So , how do you deal with things when sometimes you just want to break down and
begin to cry ? Love .
Like i said in my "about me" I've been through a lot . My best friend has been in
the hospital several times this week . She has a severe case of depression . We got
in a fight last Friday, & she told me that now that she had lost her best friend
there was no point in breathing . She hung up the phone, & i hadn't talked to her for
a while . I wasn't worried at all, mainly because she had said these types of things
before & nothing ever happened . Yesterday, her cousin called me up to let me know
she is out of the hospital . I didn't know she was in the hospital . I don't want to
go into details about this incident because it isn't mine to share with the blogging
world, but her suicide attempt was like a wake up to me .
I realized that our friendship was so much more than what it seemed to me . It
was a sisterly bond between us . She thought that i was the only one left still
having hope for her & telling her that it would only be a matter of time before she
would get better & things would shortly go back to normal . She thought that i was
the only person that truly loves her, even out of her family . She thought that she
was alone . I never want anyone to have to feel alone like she did, or i did when i
was young, or even people that i don't personally know . I think at some point we
will all be alone, waiting for someone to help, someone to come say that " no
everything isn't alright" or " yes you will get better soon, there's nothing to worry
about" . Even the happiest seeming people can hide the sadness underneath fake smiles
and laughs . The people that are truly there for you all of the time, every step of
the way, guiding you in times that you need, are your best friends . & that is what
love is to me . Being there when no one else is. Caring . & Comforting .
Love is that moment .