Wednesday, 9 December 2009
12:42:24 AM (GMT)
i wouldn't have done everything i did. i wouldn't have put so much trust into you. i
wouldn't have cared for you so much, or even let myself fall for you. but i trusted
you, you were so convincing. you knew just how to do things, so i would trust you. so
i would fall&care for you. so i'd give you every fucking piece of me, so you could
take it&leave. that's all you wanted. you just wanted something i can never get back.
if i woulda known this is how things woulda ended up, i never woulda even let those
thoughts come into my head. i woulda never even gotten with you. i woulda walked
away, before it was too late as it is now. i never woulda thought i could hurt this
much being only 14. but i guess i can. i shoulda thought twice. but i beleived you. i
trusted you with my heart, and now it's in pieces. i can't beleive i was so stupid.
so stupid to beleive you actually cared. to beleive you loved me, that i could trust
you. i was so stupid to give you things i can NEVER get back. it's like i'm trying to
tak all the blame for all this on me, but i know it's just as much your fault as it
is mine. man idk what to do. how do i stop hurting so much? how do i stop caring? :/