Wednesday, 14 October 2009
08:16:33 PM (GMT)
the way that time can influence your mood
and opinions so easily. how your smiles aren't always real and how frustrating it is
that i can't tell. it's the way you hint at things but won't tell me and i won't
fight for an answer but it tears me apart knowing that you want to tell me but can't.
it's when you come to me and no one else and i'm sorry but i don't know how to help.
the way you make me worry, you tease me, you play on my insecurities but it's so far
from cruel that i can't be hurt or angry. the way you hug all your other friends but
we rarely do and the way it's not a problem. it's that i don't even know if it means
the same to you or if we're even on the same level and then you'll unknowingly
reassure me. it's the way that you can help with problems that aren't yours. it's
when you don't want to speak, so you don't. it's when other people want answers from
you that i know you don't want to give. the way nothing is personal. how sometimes i
don't mention you for reasons with both understand and the way we keep secrets. and
the way i clumsily forget my part and let words slip and you don't care. it's when we
won't accept each other's compliments. it's when you grab my wrists and i slap your
shoulder. it's when you leave me out. it's when you lie and i know you're lying, it's
how i met you and how i know i'm going to lose you. it's all the details that make up
for us not saying what we mean. when you make me late and you're sorry. when you
choose other people over me. when i'm left on my own and you're not there. the way
you'll say 'i don't know' just because you don't want to explain.
the way you talk makes me nervous sometimes. but it's okay because i'm sure i do the