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my curseCategory: (general)
Saturday, 25 April 2009
10:16:00 PM (GMT)
i can't take this 
i can't put up with this
paranoid 
worrried 
screaming at myself 
im blaming it all on me
all their pain and misery
this hurt won't go away
it's here to forever stay
this pain you etched into my heart
constantly tears me apart
every days a fight
to fix that which was never right
do you know what its like to die inside
go through each day forcing yourself to cry a single tear
just to make each day easier to bear
in a world where no one cares
then blaming all the problems on yourself
taking all the fault
hurting yourself for being such a terrible person
the worlds problems being yours to burden
tearing yourself up
beating yourself down
calling yourself a piece of shit
telling yourself its all your fault
that you caused it
everything you say and do
you try your hardest to help
but nothing works
it goes on day after day after day
deaths, abuse, drugs, hate
you see it all
blame yourself for everything
you watch as no one cares
all they do is stop and stare
your set on fixing what no one actually cares about
im blaming it all on me
all their pain and misery
this hurt won't go away
it's here to forever stay
this pain you etched into my heart
constantly tears me apart
they scream at you 
they eat at you and feed on you
you fix them and keep them happy
take away all their hurt and pain
add it to yours
your their cure
they don't realize what they do to you
what you've become
they've killed you
yet you laugh it away
because you had a choice, you had a say
you could've stopped it all
stopped caring
stopped helping
but thats just not you
you can't control it
you help because you don't see a reason to care about yourself
it's like a drug
an addiction
but this is worse
you can't get rid of this
this is your curse
im blaming it all on me
all their pain and misery
this hurt won't go away
it's here to forever stay
this pain you etched into my heart
constantly tears me apart
you have no control
it's killed your heart and killed your soul
left with nothing but a black abyss
you have nowhere to run away to
you stand on the outside looking in
you see all the hate and all the sin
this is just to much to take in
the only way to fix it all is to give in
feed yourself to the demons
let them eat you and kill you
this is your only choice
its your only escape
lose everything you have inside
you do it mainly for them 
you hate what you've become
but you can't help but to succumb
to overcaring
the worlds tragedy eats at you
you have no rest
the only way to remove these chains is to kill yourself inside
it's ok though, it comes back
sure it takes a few days
but you'll be ok
you scream at yourself trying to get it back
but nothing works
you wanna feel again
you wanna heal
you wanna hurt 
you wanna cry
but nothing works
it stays locked up, lost
you wish you had what they had
but you gave it all up for them
left them in their world of lies
you set out to fix it all
show them the true light
everything they've done
what they've become
sure it destroyed you
 but this is your problem not theirs
you'll be ok
their all that matters
your already dead and broken
they still have a chance
they have a life to live
they have a heart to give
it will be just fine
as long as their life is divine
the only thing i wish to know
and hope that they will show
from everyone out their
who will actually care?
all their pain and misery
this hurt won't go away
it's here to forever stay
this pain you etched into my heart
constantly tears me apart
you sacrificed youself
gave up everything you had
you wish they would be glad
but their not

Comments 
‹automatic› says :   25 April 2009   119838  
Wow Jacob!
Yet again another amazing peice of writing!
I love your writing
 

 
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