That was fast
Life dude /: feel like shit...
Hmmm do you feel like you want to die?...
Yeah...Whats scary is i now have a handgun...
Wanna know why i wanna die?
Wow... Well I lost the best thing to have happen to me cuz of some stupid joke and
now I don't care for life /: .... Why you?
I like a girl, but she has a boyfriend. Me and her a friends, and it kills me cause i
wanna be with her. One day i asked her if she did anything fun and she said i may not
wanna know, i asked if i could know it without the details, she said it involved her
and her boyfriend alone in the bandroom
What happend to you?
Oh ... I'm so sorry dude /: and to make it short , I was joking with someone and the
person I care for more then anything in the world is taking it the wrong way and now
I don't really care for life dude ;~; I just need someone to talk to...
What was the joke?
Well it wasn't really a joke per say but we were just kidding around , never ment any
of it... We were flirting in a sexual way /: , it was threw in box btw... She went on
and saw them and she thinks I'm a slut which I never did anything .... At all , I'm
no slut but now I'm dieing inside so... Fuck life ... I need pills....
Don't do pills
I've done that, it's not fun
Even if you try to OD it is not a nice way to go
And if you kill yourself or something, whats stoping me?
I'm so close to snaping and killing many people along with myself and my loved ones
/: , dude I wish you were here man... Havnt seen you in awhile and I could use a
hug... ;~; , I'm like tearing up as we speak... I really do care no more dude I ... I
just lost all meaning in life
Let's just not do anything hasty okay...
You have meaning in your life
You can find someone else, or mend the broken feelings of your loved one
Make more friends
have a good life
Don't end up like me
Listen to this, let it calm you
/: dude the BEST thing I had is gone! I can't find no one like her! And if I did I
still wouldnt like her or be happy ... Cuz she's not the same girl I love x( , I
thought I needed theropy just cuz I moved ... That was when she still loved me ....
And now she's gone.... What do you expect me to do ;~; ?? And I can't I'm on my iPod
... Won't work...
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