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Tuesday, 25 December 2012
03:50:23 AM (GMT)
I can't breathe enough to sleep.
My mind is panicked and in pain.
My whole life has been a waste,
so much money spent in vain.
My family is asleep, 
oblivious in their beds,
dreaming of the white Christmas
that I just stained red.
I don't want to die tonight,
I wouldn't make them wake up
to such an awful sight,
and I keep telling myself
I'm not going to do it,
nothing tonight is so bad
that I can't live through it,
but I'm choking on air,
my heart's too clouded to care,
and I'm bleeding, bleeding, bleeding,
and it's just not fair.
I repeat in my head, 
"I am not going to, I am not"
but despite all I said,
my willpower is shot, 
and I keep finding myself 
with a blade in my hand,
bleeding before I know it,
before I even understand
what's happening,
why I'm crying,
why my eyes burn with pain,
I guess this is how it is,
after toying with death drives you insane.
Last edited: 25 December 2012

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