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Monday, 28 May 2012
02:11:34 AM (GMT)
I used to think betrayal was your older brother snitching on you, or your next door
neighbor not asking
You to play outside, or the popular bitch not inviting you to her 6th birthday
But no. It is much more painful. Betrayal is your "best friend" kissing your

I was upset at the fact that she was moving to Florida because I'll never see her
I confided in her for everything. Told her everything. She and I faced shit together
and we 
were like sisters. Then she kissed him. She fucking kissed him. 
She made sure no one was around, and kissed him! Worst part? He couldn't do anything,
but pull away 
And try to avoid her. And he told me after he overdosed. He threw it up though. When
he told me, 
I wanted to scream as loud as possible. I've never had a better reason to scream. But
I couldn't. My family would hear.

Never have I cried so hard. Never have I felt so hurt. Never have I wanted to run
away more. Never has my
Head hurt so much from crying. 

She tried to talk to me and tell me it was her fault. I cant respond to her texts.
What an I supposed to say? 
I could yell at her and cuss her out and do everything because she deserves it.
But I don't do that. I can't. I just ignore her. I can't believe it. I can't fucking
trust anyone.
Now I have a terrible headache. 

She was one of those friends. One that was like "Oh, she would never do that!"
Haha, funny. Now I have worse trust issues. What if Paige or Emma or even Makayla 
Decide to hurt me just the same? It was truly a punch to the heart. 
A tough one. But she's moving. I'll never have to see her again. She's moving to a
different state.
What am I supposed to feel? I feel nothing. I feel angry, sad, raged, betrayed. I
feel numb. I feel 
In pain, worthless, not good enough. I feel numb. I feel numb. I feel nothing. I feel

I want to melt. I want to evaporate. I want to explode. I want to go to bed and
Get rid of this headache.

evangeline_choi1995 says:   28 May 2012   376098  
close friends are sometimes too close for comfort that it creates a
conflict. you shouldn't trust all friends. cause even if they're your
friends, they're still human. and humans can do all sorts of nasty
things. ^^
‹Fairy.Wind.› says:   28 May 2012   607828  
‹EvilSpaceSpaghetti› says :   28 May 2012   587852  
I could've told you something like this would happen. She's a good
friend at times, but she's done similar things to me. I don't know if
you remember them. But they happened.
I love you, Deedee.

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