Friday, 13 April 2012
12:16:02 AM (GMT)
I want to stop time, walk to , (where he lives). And I want to
be invisible. I want to be a ghost. I'll find and I'll be near him but I
won't bother him.
I'll watch him, I'll sleep on the floor, my food will be dew-covered spiderwebs I
find outside, I'll watch his life like a movie. I'll cry sometimes but I'll be
content with my existence.
I'll get very skinny, I'll weigh the very least, I'll breathe carbon dioxide like a
plant so that I don't take up any oxygen that could be put to better use by a real
person. I'll breathe in all the breaths exhales. I'll be only an
extension of his existence.
I'll let my hair grow very long, like a curtain I can hide behind, even tho no one
can see me. I'll stand by the window in the morning and kiss the glass, because the
cold will feel so good against my lips. I'll invite the sun back for the day and
watch go to school.
Eventually I'll feel so lonely. I'll want to feel touched, I'll want to feel real.
I'll be awake early in the morning, while he's still asleep I'll lay down beside him.
Before long he'll wake up, and I'll feel afraid. He'll notice the impression from my
invisible weight on the bed and he'll reach out and touch me and I'll touch him back.
After that we'll kiss every night, and I won't need to eat spiderwebs anymore because
I'll eat his kisses. I'll lie with him and feel happy, and I'll cry and he'll wipe my
invisible tears away. I'll never speak, but he'll know my name. We'll know each
other so well.