Saturday, 24 September 2011
02:50:27 PM (GMT)
I try so hard. I try so fucking hard to make friends, and be nice to people, and all
of that shit, and you know what?
I. fucking. give. up. I'm not texting anyone unless they text me first, I'm not
approaching anyone to talk to them, I'm not going to go out of my way to be friendly
to anyone who wouldn't like me otherwise.
I am so sick of people who are only my friend when it's convenient for them, or when
they don't wan to be alone, or don't want to look like a loser who has nobody to talk
to. I feel like none of my friends actually like me. And guys, the ones that act like
they like me, no. I'm just something for them to look at. this is bullshit. I'm tired
of putting everybody else's happiness before mine.
If I wanted to go home and cry about something, I wouldn't even have anyone to call.
Let's face it, the two friends I have on here, who I normally think care about me,
probably won't even read this. so why am I even posting it then? I don't even fucking
Actually, I do know. Part of me hopes that posting these diary entries here,
complaining and having a pity party and talking about how shitty my life is, will in
some way make my life better. when it won't.
Because I've been crying out for help for a long, long time now. Nobody has even
I'm done with this shit.
Last edited: 24 September 2011