Tuesday, 28 December 2010
10:46:04 PM (GMT)
I don't want to be angsty, or moody or dramatic. I'm not even sad, just frustrated.
I'm frustrated because the one person I thought I might actually have a chance with
has no idea how I feel.
It's sad, because sometimes you wish it was as normal a friendship as anyone else's.
It's sad, because you know you won't be able to look at her smiling and just take her
in your arms and kiss her.
But you're not sad. You're just angry that you weren't born a boy. She says that
she's bi, but things would be different if I were a guy - so different. She might
think of me like that if she didn't already think of me as a friend.
You go over all the things you could say to her, all the ways you could tell her. But
she doesn't understand, cause you sometimes do stupid shit that would make you seem
disgusting if you told her.
Essentially, you bottle it up. But you know you can't hide your feelings forever.