Wednesday, 13 October 2010
11:03:50 PM (GMT)
sooo, pretty much, this here is for you, joshua.
you spoiled child.
alright. so, there's no suitable place for me to start here.
just going to jump into it.
okay, when i first met you, i had this feeling i was supposed to help you with
i don't even know why.
i was, what, twelve? thirteen?
but still, you became important to me.
and over time, became moooore important to me.
i wasn't sure why you thought i was so amazing, and i still don't know.
but, i thought you were pretty dang amazing yourself.
we used to fight a lot.
we'd have fun, but we most certainly did fight a lot.
only because we're both extremely stubborn and set in our own ways, which, let's face
it, are pretty opposite on certain things.
so, that last time, i couldn't stand it anymore, and i bailed.
i just bailed.
i just left.
the intention was to leave forever.
but i ended up coming back, you know the story.
then, things went downhill for me, you were right about aaron, as you were right
i don't know, you have a gift of some sort.
but, still, i didn't go back to you.
i was still mad.
finally, one random day, i got the feeling that i had to talk to you again.
to apologize, even though, honestly, i didn't think i did much wrong except leave you
so then i did, expecting you would be mad and bitter because that's where we left
but you accepted me, so, well.
and it was the best thing i'd done for a long time, to go back to you, the one that
was there all along even though i thought you were against me. you were there before,
during, and after jeremiah, my first mistake. and even after my second, you let me
you don't understand how important you are to me.
really, you're mine to protect, as if you're part of my family.
every day, all the time, i think about you.
i know you've been troubled, and that troubles me, and i just want you to be happy.
i feel like i'm supposed to make you happy.
i guess that's because i always feel like i'm supposed to save the whole damn world.
but no, really, you'll never grasp how much i love you.
i couldn't tell you what it is that makes me adore you so, i doubt i could put it
you're unexplainable, joshua, you're amazing.
Last edited: 13 October 2010