Saturday, 21 March 2009
03:32:46 PM (GMT)
Dear diary, December 31, 2008
I always knew that one day that I would try to kill someone and then hate myself for
doing that. When Tommy Martin finally broke one of my chains I finally let myself
loose thanks to him I nearly tried to kill somebody and thanks to him I finally get
to see what the world is really like. Filled with hatred and war, so that the whole
world will be fallen to a deep darkness that has everyone risking their lives to blow
it all off. I would take my anger on something else or someone else and go to hell
without a doubt would I care if I never go to haven because I’m not worthy enough.
If I killed one person then I would have to kill another and never stop until I would
have gone to jail for mass murder. The whole reason murders were made was because
when they were younger people always took advantage of them. They couldn’t take it
anymore so they take it out on the people they hate the most.
The worst thing about it was that my mom wouldn’t stop leaving me alone about it
couldn’t she just wait till I have gotten it all out of my system. She yelled at me
and I hate being yelled at which made me cry but when I wouldn’t give her an answer
she slapped my face which made me cry even more and wish she would turn into a spider
so I can squash her. My life is officially a living hell thanks to what happened to
night and I will never forget it ever and it will never leave me. So if anyone is
reading this I hope that you learned something and is terrified to find out that I
will kill you because all this is private and nothing here in this world is going to
escape from me.