Tuesday, 26 August 2008
02:51:58 PM (GMT)
Lies are but simple, basic deceptions that one happens to make throughout life.
But the question is, do all lie to hurt others, or do they lie to protect themselves
from the eviles of this world?
It is not impossible to lie for the greater good; many do.
So my question is this;
If it does not affect personally,
Why would he/she be so angry at me?
I had to lie to protect myself.
If she did not like him, it would be obvious that my lie shouldn't bother her in the
I did not generally want to lie; my mother, father, and (mainly) boyfriend encouraged
me to do so. While I was away, nothing could protect me as much as if I were home.
That last real date with him made me resolute; I had to lie, or else I had no other
option but to give it all away.
I thank God that somebody like him cares about me each second I am not under his
gaze. And even when I am crying, or on the defense as it were now, he comforts me and
tells me how much he wants me to be by his side, even through hard times.
I wish she would understand that he doesn't plan on leaving any time soon. Maybe my
anger has fueled this outset, but I still believe that I am on the path of my heart,
and she is trying to destroy my way.
I want to believe that I am right.
I do believe that I am.
My friends that support me throughout my troubles, Kacie and Rachel, have healed me;
they are the only ones that I can share personal things, while they share their deep
thoughts with me. I am gracious for all eternity that they have always kept me close,
although I have not always been the best friends to them. Also, Cindy, Vicki, and
many others have helped me every single day, to keep me sane.
My secrets are many; my emotions more.
But the secret of me and him has finally broken.
And I couldn't enjoy life more.