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Tuesday, 29 May 2007
11:50:27 PM (GMT)
I've become the girl you all know
The kind who makes walking into a show
The kind who'll laugh at every joke
The girl who'll laugh if she spilled her coke
I'm in every one of your schools, I'm the center of attention
Your so busy laughing with me that you don't see the tension

There is something I'd like you all to know
It's that what you see is the side of me that's hollow
These stupid dances and stupid screams
The way I go to the extremes
Is all a cover, an elabrite lie
But I hate this girl so much I wish she'd die

She's like a barbie, made of plastic
As you see that she's so enthousiastic
To run laughing with you
It's all just a cover you can't see through
This girl atually has feelings too
If you'd only stop an consider a few

She wouldn't lay awake
Wondering if this new her was a mistake
Wondering if she should go back to how things were
The redicule and the tortcure
No! They'll never make me go back
To that world of silent attack

I'll just stay this way
In this stupid world to delay
The return to the world of unseen hate
The world of which I had escaped
Where invisible knives are thrown
Because that world has been outgrown

It's easier to say I'm okay
As my old self starts to decay
As I wait an stop from killing this new girl
Who's sent my life into a whirl
She's taken my life and she'll take yours 
If you to are fighting the hidden wars

You don't have to bee reshaped
There's still time to escape
I'm a lost cause and a sorry one too
After all I used to be just like you
Last edited: 12 June 2007

Oroborus21 says:   30 May 2007   419637  
its an interesting look on what it means to life inauthentically. on
one hand you please others and are free from a certain tension by
assuming a different persona but on the other hand by not being true
to yourself you create a different set of can't help
but wonder how long you can go before the old self burst it
almost surely must...
freestyle13 says:   31 May 2007   362377  
A must what?
Moogie says:   18 June 2007   831418  
be who you want to be...not what other people expect.  you are
wonderful the way you are...don't change to fit in, it will only make
you miserable. love yourself and others will love you.
freestyle13 says :   18 June 2007   322239  
I've tried being myself but thats why I became her to escape that


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