Monday, 14 July 2014
04:40:26 PM (GMT)
i moved to lisbon, maine almost six months ago.
i miss my friends in westbrook so much but sadly i don't think they miss me, whenever
i try talking to them i either get ignored or they never see. i moved to lisbon
because i was getting bullied and treated badly in westbrook, i deeply regret moving.
lisbon was only fun for awhile until i got heartbroken badly and the friends i made
there starting drifting apart from me. now, i'm always having this thought that i'm
meant to be alone. i rather live in a trashy town with friends instead of being a
loner in a pretty town. i've had blackout problems ever since i was 4 years old so
i've been blacking out from sadness and anger a lot which is terrifying me. my anger
is slowly starting to come out uncontrollably, it scares me thinking that sooner or
later... someone is gonna light the fuse on me since i'm a grenade about to blow. i
want my westbrook friends back, i try my hardest but only a few see my struggle. i'm
always drowning in nostalgia which can be good sometimes but it can also be a bad
thing leading me to deeper depression. i can be alone just fine but it hurts missing