Thursday, 16 August 2012
05:17:37 AM (GMT)
He took my mind off Branden.
You know, the boy who broke my heart.
The boy who I argued with about everyday.
Then pretended it was all okay.
I liked our relationship, but to be honest, he reflected the bad
things about me. Insecurities, depression, the cutting.. (I've been off it for
But then I realized.. I'm fucking awesome and if he can't handle my insecurities,
we're not going to progress as a couple. That's why it didn't hurt me so much.
That is, until he quickly replaced me and broke his promises
and told me to go fuck myself.
He was so different before he moved out..
But this boy.. He reflects all the positive in me. Confidence, sense of humor,
I friendzoned him too much. The first time Branden and I split,
he was the one I went to. And he told me he was a jerk. And we talked
About starting an indie band together. And he made me happy. And I developed
a small crush. Only a small crush. Then Branden and I got back together.
And I friendzoned the other guy. And word got around about the guy and I
being "too friendly". And that is when Branden started disliking him.
And he would pull me closer when I talked to him. And he would get
extremely jealous and say "I don't wanna hear about him." and he would say
"I'm afraid he's going to steal you from me.. Mine.." and I would smile and say
"Yes.". But y'know, I have all the freedom in the world to crush on him.
And seriously, he's amazing. What I had with Branden was fun and dandy.
And special. But with this guy, it's a different special..
He texts me "Goodnight sweet dreams I love you" randomly.
Almost every night. He thinks of me when he goes to sleep.
We talked a little today. He said he wants to hang out. He lives like 5 minutes
Away within biking distance. And he's so down to Earth. And our taste in music is
And a while I was dating Branden, he admitted he was moderately attracted to me.
But he was friendzoned. But he doesn't have to be anymore.
Not if he doesn't want to. I was his first friend at our school two years ago
When he moved here. But he was simply a friend.
And he never fails to tell me he loves me.
I really hope my friend doesn't mind.. I'll go ask her right now.