Saturday, 26 March 2011
11:08:57 AM (GMT)
Is it just me, or is it ridiculous that after 7 months, a couple dates and countless
hours spent on someone they just delete your number and act like you dont exist? When
you see them in the coffee shop that you used to hang out at, they wont even look at
you. When you ask them why they deleted your number and act like youre a ghost, they
just look at you and say huh. Is it just me, or is that a little, intense?
Perhaps i expected too much out of him? I mean, he was 18, but im only 15 so how
could my expectations be so high that he couldn't live up to them? I mean, all i
wanted from him was to be treated well (Cough cough Not be called a whore every
night. Cough cough) and not to be dropped randomly for no reason. And he failed me at
both of them.
I understand that everything happens for a reason, and he didnt treat me overly well,
and he isnt exactly 'parent approved' but he meant the world to me. I get that im
probably going to be better off now that he is out of my life, but, have you ever
felt like although you know its best for you, you dont feel good about the decision
you had to make? That feeling Wayyy down in your heart that says, "i will be alright,
eventually. Just don't ask me if i am today, or tommorrow, or even next week cause
its gunna take a long time to feel good again." Yeah, thats what im feeling right
now. I dont know. I guess, I just, cant believe i poured my heart and soul into this
kid, and he just used me and took me for-granted....
Wow. Its just annoying. So if you read that, sorry, you just got an earful, er
eyeful, of my deepest personal life and you dont know anything about me so its
probably pretty... awkward. :p
HaHaHa. Uhm, Carry on.
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