Saturday, 7 November 2009
09:10:00 PM (GMT)
miss your voice and your touch.
and if i told you i love you,
could that be enough?
i know i'm depressing you right now.
and i know you probably don't want to be talking to me.
you even said it was no fun right now.
i've been miserable all day.
i even cried for a large portion of it.
even when Harley was over.
it's been, like, a month since we've actually hung out, hung out,
like we used to every weekend or every other weekend.
and i did see you on Halloween.
but it just wasn't like it is.
and it doesn't seem like you're affected by it at all.
you say you are.
you say you miss being with me.
you say you miss kissing and just being together.
but it doesn't seem like you're affected.
i don't want you to sit around your house and mope like i do.
i don't want you to not have fun.
i don't want you to be depressed like i am.
i want you to be happy.
i want you to have fun.
i want you to just be like you normally are.
funny, adorable, amazing.
but it doesn't seem like you're affected like you claim to be.
and you always seem pissed just because i'm sad.
you can't blame me for it though.
and you just act...
insensitive some of the time whenever i mention it.
i hate it.
you're being mean.
it's hurting me.
and you don't realize it at all.
and it is my fault.
and i'm sorry.
i don't know how many times i've said that today.
it's a lot of times, though, i know that.
you're kind of ignoring me though.
and that's not helping.
i'm sorry i'm depressing right now, though.
i'm sorry i can't be happy and smiling and normal, like i always am.
Last edited: 7 November 2009